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Holy Moly! I have a 9 year old!

April 27, 2009 at 5:01pm KMG2 was born. He was born after being in labor only 6 hours which I would say is pretty impressive for my second labor. He weighed in at 5lbs 11oz and 19″ long! He had a full head of strawberry blonde hair and he was just so beautiful. My second perfect baby boy in my life. I felt like my life was complete…(hint we had another baby after KMG2….)

He is officially 9 years old! He is JUST like his dad. In every way possible. He is athletic. He loves to work with his hands using tools. He likes riding dirt bikes, going to the skate park and riding scooters. He has a TON of friends my little social butterfly.

He is doing very well in school minus his reading because…..well he refuses to read. He hates it. Another thing that’s just like his father. It amazes me how much he changes every single day.


When Life Gives You Lemons..

You should make lemonade or so they say….I say bring me some vodka to go with that lemonade. I havent worked in over 4 years because the husband and I decided it was better for me to stay home with our newborn daughter. Which I was absolutely ecstatic because I didnt get that opportunity with my two older boys.

Shortly after we decided I would stay home JDG decided to start his own business  and boom….it took off overnight. So I started working for JDG helping him out with shipping orders every day. I did that until October 2017. We made a ton of money in the first three years of owning the company but by the fourth year it just died off and we have no idea why. So JDG decided it was time to sell the business and move on with our lives. And that is exactly what we did.

The, about 3 weeks ago JDG was let go from his job. Talk about a kick in the dick. He was obviously the breadwinner for our family because I wasnt working. So of course it came as a huge shock. JDG said that he had a feeling it was coming because they were cut down to 4 days a week for months now. But your never financially ready for that kind of blow.

So now after four years out of the work force….Im a working woman again and so far I love my job. It is so faced paced that it makes the day fly by! They did a little training for me on Friday and then they threw me on the phones alone. Talk about nerve wracking! Plus the woman that is training me is leaving for vacation Weds so I will be on my own at the receptionists… already nervous about that. I just love being out of the house and having daily adult interaction.

So we’ll see what next week brings!

My Oh My!

Holy cow has it been quite some time since I’ve sat down and had the time to write about well anything! So much has happened in my life, this will probably be a really long entry so I can try and catch everyone up. Not that I have a lot of readers….but hey someone might be interested in what I have to say. So I will bullet point the important points in my life over the last few months and then Ill go into detail…..I just want to make sure Im not forgetting anything! Its been one hell of a roller coaster ride this year!

  • I turned 30 on December 11, 2017
  • I had an affair that started 07/19/2017 and lasted 6 months
  • I separated from my husband because of said affair
  • I ended up in the psychiatric ward because at some point over the summer i lost my damn mind and ended up in hospital for two days
  • I started new medication….which I love but they made me gain 45 lbs
  • My middle child turned 9 on 04/27/2018
  • I am about ready to register my youngest for Kindergarten already
  • My oldest will be starting middle school (yikes!)
  • I started a new job on Friday
  • My husband was laid off from his job a few weeks ago
  • I got arrested for domestic battery in November

I’m sure I’ll find more to write about but that’s just the jist of my life the past few months. I was really nervous about turning 30 because people kept saying that your life goes downhill after you turn 30. I was supposed to have a huge blowout for my birthday but go figure right before my birthday I had a falling out with my bestie who was planning my party. So the party got cancelled and I ended up going out with my friend and her boyfriend….and the guy that i was seeing at the time. Boy i tell you what, I partied like it was my 21st birthday. Absolutely wrecked. I honestly dont think I have ever been that drunk in my life. And I literally didnt have a drink until last night when we went out with some friends, but i controlled myself for sure. I didnt want to take up feeling like shit because I knew I would be the one home with the kids and taking care of the.

Random thought…..So I had a job interview on Wednesday and on my way home from the interview some jag off hits me. I was in the left turn where the line in the road turns solid and this guy just came over and cut me off. No turn signal. No brake lights. Nothing. Over $1,000 in damages on my car. The worst part is the police officer said that I was at fault because I was driving too fast for conditions and didnt brake! OMG are you joking me?! So I have to go to court on May 17th and fight it. But I did NAIL the job! And thank god I did because Ive been job searching since October and nothing bit. It’s not the pay that I was hoping for ….not by a long shot but it gets me out of the house and helps out with bills and groceries since the husband isn’t working. And now that he’s not working he can be Mr. Dad! He’ll finally know what I go through every day LOL. But he has been working really hard to find some work to keep him busy and make money.

And onto the next chapter……

Reality slaps me in the face….

I haven’t written in a few weeks….but that’s because I haven’t been feeling well….or I’ve been too busy to sit down and get all my thoughts out….

The last week I’ve felt like crap…..beyond imaginable crap. Last Thursday I was vomiting after my workout – thought maybe it was the empty stomach or not enough water…maybe a combo of both. Who knows….I’m not a dr.

Well Sunday I was being lazy and laying around with the kiddos….lounging on the couch and watching T.V. All of a sudden I get this horrid pain ripping through my abdomen. Literally….worst gas pain ever….or so I thought….but nope….definitely wasnt gas pain….trust me I know.

Pain was still present Monday and I couldn’t really get off of the couch. So Tuesday I decided (after some “encouraging” words from my mother) that it was time to get into the dr. I couldn’t handle the pain anymore. I went in and got poked and prodded. Had an ultrasound done because the dr thought it was an ovarian cyst….low and behold….it was not. So yesterday (weds.) I went into the dr and had some blood taken.

My dr seems to pretty confident that I have diverticulitis….. I googled it and found out what it was…..and scared the shit out of myself….of course you automatically start thinking worst case scenario. So my blood work came back showing that I did in fact have an infection in my body….so she is starting me on a broad spectrum antibiotic for 5 days…..if the pain is still there or I am still feeling sick…..I’ll schedule a CT scan…..

Im 27 years old….Im too young to have something like that wrong with me……Im a mom of 3 kids…..I dont have time to be down and out when a flare up happens…..I dont have time to be down after surgery god forbid it ever comes to that. Seriously you just start thinking worst case scenario… can you NOT… it’s not like I have cancer….it’s a very and i mean very treatable condition but that doesnt change the fact that you cannot help but bring yourself to that dark place.

What if something happens to me? Will my husband be okay? Will he be able to handle 3 kids like I do? Will he have a life after me? Will my kid miss me? Will they be mad at me? The list of questions goes on and on……Maybe Im just a negative nelly IDK…..but whenever I have a health scare this is immediately what I think about……I mean God forbid I be positive for 30 seconds…’s just my nature….IDK

So hopefully next week we have some FIRM answers….I do know that we have a nasty stomach bug going around the schools where my kids go….so I am hoping to god that’s all it is and nothing more…..there’s me being positive 😉

Jamberry Nails Product Review

Consultant: Christine Kilner
roduct: Nail Art

I have heard so much about Jamberry…pretty much it’s them most amazing company out there. Christine was generous enough to send me samples and allow me to do a review of the product. As you can see from below, I did that 7 day challenge. Which in a nutshell if you apply 1 wrap to your finger and then the rest with nail polish to see how it holds up compared to the wrap. I use my hands daily….so even if I paint my nails 1-2 days later…the nail polish is chipped away and now here I am stuck with the gross finger nails because Im too lazy to paint them ever day.

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I am happy to report that this actually be day 9, the wrap is still COMPLETELY intact and I have just about no more standard finger nail polish happening. These parties are actually perfect for a mommy/me day or just a fun night girls night in with some wine. Nothing like getting to relax and getting your nails done KNOWING they are going to stay in tact for AT LEAST 7 days! I cannot wait until summer time because I will getting wraps for my toes…..Yup you heard me correct…they offer toe nail wraps amongst other products such as nail laquer! Thank a peek at Christine’s website above if you want to view the products! Also do not hesitated to reach out to Christine with any all questions that you have!

All wraps are buy 3 get 1 free! There are quite a few wraps that are going to discontinued as the new catalog comes out in March. I high recommend trying out this product….you’ll see how right I am. And the application was so simple a 5 year old could do 🙂 I cannot wait to try more products from Jamberry Nails!

Falling off the wagon….

And that’s not in reference to drinking or any addictive behavior at all.

This is really more of a blog entry geared towards SAHMs (Stay At Home Moms). Although, I’m sure that the working mommies out there could weigh in on this subject as well.

As I’ve said before….in March it’ll be 1 year that I’ve been home with my kids….Ages 8, 5, and 18 months. They pretty much run my life at this point. And I wouldn’t trade it for ANYTHING! But when I was working I noticed that I had more of a sense of accomplishment. Sunday evenings after dinner I would sit down and do a week or two week meal plan. I would dedicate 1 day on the weekend to doing laundry, scrubbing the house, etc…..but here we are almost a year later and I seem to have fallen off the wagon. And even my husband has noticed unfortunately. It used to be that I would run the vacuum and he would be like omg did you clean the house….and now I run the vacuum once or twice a day and he’ll be like when is the last time you dusted? LOL….now that just irritates me….but hey whatever….at least he pays attention right?

But now…it’s like I know I’m going to be home ALL DAY EVERY DAY….so I feel like if I don’t clean for 4 days who cares because on day 5 I’ll clean…or why do laundry on Sunday when I can do it Monday or Tuesday….I almost feel like I have lost my sense of accomplishment! There are days where I wake up at 630 and start cleaning and am cleaning until 3-4 in the afternoon…and there are days where I just want to watch everything from the last week I have on my DVR…or I just want to take a nap….because I CAN!….and I seriously feel like a hermit bum.

It’s winter so we are inside all day…really there’s no excuse for me not cleaning except I don’t feel like it. And it has started arguments with my husband because he busts his ass 40 hours a week to support us and allow us to stay home. But at the same time….3 kids is a lot of work…..and an 18 mo old by herself is even more work omg….and she is like a tornado that rips through the house and cleaning up after her SUCKS…but I am the one that is home….therefore I am the primary caretaker….I clean…make sure the boys are out the door for school on time….cook for them…help the boys with their homework every day….make sure they are all bathed etc….so don’t I deserve to NOT do anything once in awhile?

I feel like that sense of entitlement to be lazy because raising kids is hard work….but that’s no excuse. I know it isn’t, but that doesnt mean my mindset is going to change….

How do you stay productive? What do you do to make yourself feel accomplished? Do you make lists? Or just fly the seat of your pants most days? Im really curious what my readers do and have to say….Is this a normal thing I will grow out of? Or am I doomed?!

New Years Resolution….

What is a new years resolution anyways? I’ve always felt like it’s something that people do just to set themselves up for failure….because for real….how many of you have actually completed a new years resolution? I haven’t completed one. Ever. So this year I thought that I would try something different. Daily goals. I mean how hard could it be to complete DAILY goals?!

I’ve been a SAHM 11 months now and have finally gotten into a pattern w/ certain things….but there is always something that needs to be done with 3 kids running around. Like I would like my house to be cleaner. And I would like to cook 5 out of 7 nights a week. Not to mention I run a business as well and have to make sure to get that stuff in.

So each morning that I wake up…..the first thing I do while the kids are eating breakfast is I make a list of 10 things no matter how big or small they are that I want to get done. There is just something really satisfying about checking things off of a to do list. Whether it’s as small as washing the white clothes or as big as rearranging the bedroom furniture, it goes on the list. And sometimes I even get the kids in on the gig….which takes ten times longer but its good bonding time I feel like.

Its only 3 weeks into the new year….but so far so good….except the cooking….Im failing pretty miserably….I did cook every night this week so far….so there’s that….but hey it’s a process for us all! So now I have to jump on the meal planning bandwagon….because honestly it’s really the easiest thing to do for a family of 5. I’m looking forward to making 2015 my bitch. Will it happen? No probably not….but I have to keep thinking like that and pushing on.

For everyone out there that DOES make new years resolutions….what are yours? and HOW in the world do you complete them? Or are you like me and just take it day by day? I’m really interested to know……